Be Excellent

A few months ago I was at a concert.

A mind-blowing, incredible awe-inspiring amazing kind of concert.  The kind that sends you to another world you didn't know existed. The kind that you're embarrassed to describe to people because they think you must be insane or on drugs. The kind I suspect few ever experience or know could possibly exist.

But its true.  Hit back if you don't believe.  There is nothing more for you here.

At some point I realized I was disconcerted,  nearly depressed.  Why?  Because while I think of myself as a kind of closet musician;  there is no way I could achieve this. The level of excellence so far surpasses my ability as to humble and shame me.  The excellence was so far beyond what I could ever achieve even if I were to pursue music and art full-time I would never come close.  Ever.  It was the Mozart to my Amadeus.  To my pretense of Amadeus.  A diamond to my cheap fake glass.  I felt bad, inferior, ugly, insufficient, ashamed, a sham, a fraud.  I  couldn't tell anyone because admitting such inner feelings was too shameful.

Yet here I was at an incredible event with incredible people, both performers and audience.  And both enjoying it beyond description and envious and sad because I could never achieve what I was experiencing.
Like Lucifer was tempting me with the joy of the impossible hoping I would succumb to the sins of envy and shame.

Then I realized:  Be Excellent.  How  can I possibly feel bad in the presence of such masterpiece? This is a crack in the doorway to heaven and the light shines so brightly so I am blinded and yet I feel bad because its not me? Because I could not do that?
What an amazing tower of egotism such that I cannot appreciate the accomplishments of others because I am incapable !

Then I realized:

Be Excellent.

I can be Excellent.

It may not be in this form or expression, but in everything I do I can be as excellent as I possibly can.  It may not have the rare majesty and skill of performance art, but the beauty is in the creator as well as the creation.  We all can be excellent even if no-one but us experiences it. But more.  We *must* be Excellent.  What is the point of life if not to be the best we possibly can be. Anything less is a waste of life's miracle.  Every second that passes where we are not the absolute best we can possibly be is a waste of the most magical event that has ever occurred in the universe. Whether you believe in the creator or the emerged ... life and consciousness is the most amazing thing ever and we waste every second of its precious minuscule finite mortality unless we are excellent in every way. Always. Every Moment.  Every thought.  Be Excellent.

I left with the best understanding ever, and I can only hope to hold onto it.

Be excellent.

You can do it.  you must.